Monday, May 23, 2011


I'm going through the Sasquatch lineup and schedule, determining who I most want to see and making sure I have the music to get me amped for it. Holymoly do I ever need a small escape from this island! Three more sleeps till we leave, four more till the start of it all :)

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

turn your back


I cannot stand how much I miss you, it is making me feel so weak.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Every day I gain a little bit more acceptance of the fact that we are no longer together. And yet with every day, I still miss you. Today has been such a quiet day...and it has been a hard one, especially those quiet moments that would have once been spent with you. Even though I have friends to get me through this, not having my family members right now blows.

I never thought I'd be asked to leave where I was once begged and stalled to stay

pin up

THIS is what I want my hair to look like all summer long.


Saturday, May 7, 2011

Funny how this was a saying that used to make us laugh, and now it just bothers me that it is so.

Friday, May 6, 2011

I feel dejected, and it frustrates me that I can't help regardless of the fact that perhaps it is not my place to help.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I am not a robot

I've been playing this song, especially the remix version, quite a bit lately. It is such an amazing video, and of course I feel like I can identify with it at the moment. Funny how you can find something in any song to identify with when you're feeling blue.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

and so it goes

I feel like this is the perfect time in my life to finally buy myself another tattoo. One that has been in my head for at least the past two years. And to perhaps acknowledge my desire to finally get it, I've searched through all of my Grandma's old letters to seek out the words "Let go and be" to accompany the feather that I want on my inner left arm. What a simple phrase, yet one that holds a lot of meaning. I've always looked up to both my Grandma and mother as two women who I feel have really embodied that phrase and made whatever life dealt them work, even though at times they may have struggled.

Last week as I was right at the beginning of all of this emotional roller-coaster, a co-worker who I share many of my tattoo passions with, suggested that perhaps this was a way to take back a bit of myself...and I agree with him. So now my question I get it before Sasquatch and try to fit in an appointment next week, or do I wait till I'm back and maybe have a bit more time to heal? Because this is all happening so quickly, I almost feel like it might be better to wait. I still need to decide on a feather too...I was thinking perhaps the flight feather of an owl. Hmm...more research to follow.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

lets get back to normal, shall we?

Instead of focusing on how much I hurt, I'm going to try getting back to the things that make me feel good. Street style being one of them.