Saturday, April 30, 2011

I need to get away

I feel so lost here, and the city is too tiny. I was having such a good day today, and keeping it together...until I saw you. And you acted so nonchalant and easy going; meanwhile, my heart was racing and my stomach in a knot. I'm so frustrated that you have this affect on me, and undoubtedly will for the next who knows how long.

So. That is why I need to get away, and why Sasquatch could not come soon enough.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

heartbreak purgatory

I know that two days later is not enough time to mourn the loss of a friend and relationship, but I'm pretty tired for crying spontaneously and wondering where I fucked up or where I could have tried harder...even though it's not my fault...or his.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

it's been a night

And I already miss you like hell.

I miss your touch, your skin, your comforting arms. The way you made me feel safe when I was with you. I took pills last night to help me sleep, only they didn't. I kept waking up in disbelief. I didn't want this to end, and yah, months in advance of me potentially leaving is better than doing it then, but I wasn't ready for it at all. I feel like I've lost one of my best friends, because that is definitely what you of my best friends. One that I could tell anything, and feel assured you wouldn't judge me. I wish it didn't have to be this way, and even though I don't regret a thing and loved the time we did have together...I wish none of this had happened so I wouldn't be this broken. Fuck.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I've been around...

But not really on here lately...

The truth is, I have been super busy with work (egads I haven't done an outfit post in ages...I promise to update you all with some new outfits when I get the chance) and life. Right now my life looks like: running around the town on errands, escaping the island to Vancouver for a stay with a good friend, going back and forth between two jobs, worrying about the status of my grad school applications, thinking about what that will mean for my relationship here in Victoria, and trying to stay in contact with my circle of friends.

So right now I am sort of I want to keep this blog, or should I start a second less naughty tumblr for general likes/interests and other things that catch my eye? I suppose it would be pretty much just like this blog, so I have a hard time weighing the pros and cons...but I know that many of you who follow me have also gone the tumblr route. Any suggestions? I guess I feel like this one takes more time to edit/format etc than a tumblr would. HMMMMM. What do do.

this room

yes please:

Friday, April 1, 2011

No really...

One day I must do a photo-shoot shot in tall grass comme ca:


Kiki why did you have to move to Montreal?